Day 10: Best physical feature.
It’s no secret that I struggle with self-love & self-acceptance. I’m quite vocal about it, as a matter of fact. What I battle with the MOST though, is honestly just embracing my own appearance. I’ve been overweight almost my entire life, enough so that I’ve never felt “conventionally” attractive. Hell, I’ve never even felt that it’s okay to be fat and that I’m allowed to exist in this body (logically, I know that my worth is not tied into my weight and that fat people are people too, but actually feeling accepted by society… not so much).
I could rant for DAYS about how damaging our societal obsession with unrealistic standards of beauty is & how messed up it is that women are shamed from all sides. Women who accept their physicality and are confident in their own skin are chided for being vain & superficial. Women who embrace their flaws *and* still broadcast loving their bodies are looked down upon for not “trying hard enough” to be thin – for not trying harder to fit in the mold. Women who are in a place where they currently straight-up hate their own appearance are told they need to be more confident or no one will ever love them (or worse, that they’re being attention-seeking just for voicing their struggles with self-acceptance).
THAT. SHIT. IS. FUCKED. UP.
However, that isn’t the prompt. Ahem. I honestly don’t really like any of my physical features very much. There were some body parts I liked a lot more when I was younger, but I’ve gained so much weight in the last few years, that even those parts are more or less now a source of shame. For example, I used to really like my calves, because they were strong and they looked sort of muscle-y (thanks to years of marching band, haha). Now it just looks like I have massive tree-trunk things & calves because I’m obese.
I like my eyes, I guess? And my nose. I’m one of the only people I know who has never wished I had a different nose.